i couldnt get out of my class neither here nor getting out of my precious seat...after everyone left(my teacher being the last person...), i've stayed on needlessly searching for people to mix with after school... felt boring to go home coz i can't do much things...there's a personal reason...

anyway yup i saw fiee online..chatted with her... and since wednesday im not having school so asked her for another NYP day with me around that morning... well she say her guy was sending her.. so yup.. she just went attach a few days back. so as to how i deal with my feeling.. Personally i can't... people who knew me.. they know im a poor handler of my emotions... just see through my blog posts(the histories..wadever)...there's this seemingly difficult for me to deal with my emotions.

Terrible me.. i went emo..lucky i was alone in class... stupid me!... argh wadever it is.. the pic below(me like a fish out of water)..

Haizz..


after that i saw mizah/zafirah in sch... whenever i was alone they bump into me... seriously haha they are there when i was alone.....this is the second time in two weeks... i've saw them bumping into me.. so yeap stay in school for awhile with them..

told them of what the problem is... tsk2 thanks

as i hold patiently awaiting for miss raudah's appearance on msn.. bumped into many people who asked me of my pm : im half function after wad u told me.. :X

geeez..... thanks peeps for knocking me off with advices..

after raudah went online... and possibly like fifteen minutes ago.. i felt this





she's like a plaster... omg you know she's like what a friend needs when in problem....


<<<<>>>> says:
*make a wish upon as star
**close ur eyes*
*tink of sumting dat u longs fer
*TINg
*not One


geez and i think of my heart full of love.. btw thanks raudah. i really2 owe it to you.. though it seems im feeling okay.. not necessarily i am... like the pic..(a plaster can wear off its stickiness)..im not sure raudah's advices stay with me for long...


coz deep in me im feeling all despondence... sadly haizz

HAHA THERE GOES MY 'TWIN' IN AUSTRALIA!! haha we share the same birhtday.. quite possibly be room mate in the incubation room hahaha. LOL! ehh one day come Singapore... we goooo lepakiing yARPPPP :D haha oryte2 taww! btw haha dont forget malay words... haha coz i think i be using loads of malay(sooo not me...haha im kidding).... btw i guess over there it's freaking cold eh? haha okay2 best... so if its freaking hot.. what u'll be wearing ar? hahaha tight shirt? hahas kidding2 :) okay best take care......

My grades....im satisfied (: Anyway the first week of year 2... is much more difficult then i imagine. Lucky the grades i get was B-B-B (: haha and anyway i dont want A's. U know why? coz it will make me think that im too good for the next week. Like in year one i got this week i got a full A's.. denn the next week i soooo cabut my lessons till i receive letter rindu from RP... haha crap2.


Anyway i've got this singer in my windows media player. Its a local artist.. not artist yet but anyway she going to be... i swear... ehh asya go join ar that anugerah -.- AKU SUPPORT KAU LAAA!... gogo asya boley.. HER VOICE is PLEASANT PLUS POWER(3 P's)

geez anyway i fucking hate man u... 12 versus 11 players wad u expect... howard webb(the referee sides man u ar) nabe cheebs... see now man u macam siakk high confidence...

anyway i hope for a reserve team... and if can arsenal YOUTH team for middlesbrough game today.. i swear i want arsenal to lose just to KNOCKED MAN U OUT!! i swear... middlesbrough fucking win arsenal 10-0 later... i doubt they can do that :P haha anyway chill ar man-uians... dont talk to me till u all can get a season undefeated (: like arsenal once did.. and its in the record books of EPL (:

i've gotta thank my pretty hawt sister!! She's 24 this year okay!! Chill haikal chill!! anyway no need say of my problem. Since its in the pic above.. rationally people can know what problem.. anyway for her : gd luck (:



and now i wanna chat with my sis.....anyone got a big brother!! she wants me intro to her ar (: She's SINGLE tooo. If she's young.... aku da go seyyy!!! haha nolaaa kidding2 yup2 mind you she's just 24... anyone got a big brother!! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED :D

and thanks to you sis...

-dun find love .....let love find you... - SHIKIN(my hawt lovely sister) haha

fiee see i told u i like pink :D its a nice color for my mozila seyy

btw my lesson today is suchkling yeap2.... ): haha ohwell my problem was a tough one too handle... eyy not my personal problem OKAY. In RP problem is like ur module lesson :D. Si that yana thought im having some stress-problem. Aperdahh. haha btw yup2 it was on aircraft instrument. I knew 2 kinds of cockpit today. One is basic T and the other is Basic 6(omg its like wad i presented to my facilitator and teacher...samerrr babe) haha btw i was really2 stressed out 10 mins before my team presented. Lucky i've brought papers along sey for today lesson. It did really help me understand better. I wrote effing points for my slides you know(sooo unlike me). Usually type at notepad..but since faci say better not read from ur lappie screen i go change to paper :D haha

woahh phew i slept and i just woke up : Time 2200. haha i had a long NAAP. im gonna stay out for some movies which i had receive from my new mate today. geez movie marathon till sch lesson tomorrow...???? HELL-NO!!! but maybe i just maybe i just watch one or two.. denn go sleep for school...

blog to haikal : just u wait still got friday and the weekends.... :D

felt like playing soccer on saturday ANYWHERE... wanna come anyone? HOHO

YAYYNESSS..... Every Wednesday for your info...... Imma not coming to school... No LESSONS....Wooohooo soo good luck every year one peeps :D coz they are schooling LMAO....

But instead of staying at home... i went to school too. Not RP. But NYP. Haha so yeappp IM SOO HAPPY......(whyyyy?)....

Met up suppose to be my neighbour but tak terjadi since i stay another part in woodlands.. She's Fieee... Year one in Nyp. Yup2!! Met up her and we walk to Mrt. Woodlands Mrt was pack with year ONE students. :D haha too bad im not schooling today. :P andd someone was pinkiee today :D and yeaap we're didnt met before and makes this our first meet meet. She's a pleasant girl.

(have i ever told people my favourite colour is PINK!!!) :D

Guess what? At Yck Mrt also the same.... Fuyooo pack lor with NYP semuts.. hahaha ohwell my first time entering NYP. haha i never ever enter before ar. So yeapp fiee was meeting her friend. Her friend wasn't there... tsk2 so told fiee to go to her class.

Went to the 45 bus stop. Just as i was about to flag the bus. Shafir call me!! Ask me to slack Nyp since anyway we're be playing soccer later on. Okay and i slacked at Nyp. Teman that Shafir to eat his breakfast... went to his lecture near some fountain(dunno what block punn). haha since he'll be in his lecture room till 3pm... I went to Nyp library.... haha play games since i cant get a EFFING network... useless school lorr(not even some 'guest network'...) not useless la but pelokek!!!! haha damm! :D tsk2 sorry to those schooling in NYP.

tsk2.... and after some games i played.... i went study my last two days modules... So not meee! haha figure out how to calculate air speed.. and in binary terms. Guess what's

1 + 1 = ???

Not twoooooo seyyy.... its 10 -.-

haha told fiee and she's like blurr... haha cute2!! :Xp (: oh well anyway soccer was fun. Played at bedok view secondary street soccer court. hahaha :D saw alot of friends there... like usual... ehh i like that bvss court cause i SCORE alot :D



pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft..............i've got blister (: just because im not wearing shoes.. well its my poly shoe that i brought.. baru beli oiii takkann mau pakai seyy. haha... and now im 'ouch' 'awww' whenever my feet 'fullly stepped' on the ground. LMAO sakitt siaaaaaaa.

damm damm damm damm damm! :D


love my day today... was well spent with FUN... soccer was fun i guess (: plus the journey to Nyp tooo ... HOHO....

noww off to chatting (:

Raudah just called me a fickle minded person. A girl whom just knew me stakat online jekk, can see that im a fickle person. Am I? I muted for a second, when she say that. I dont know.. How to unfickle myself? :( Anyone... its just i wonder one thing. Could it be that im single that im like that. Put it in a way you yourself getting some dress for yourself. You went to Shop A like this. You went to Shop B and you like that. Shop C...etc.......... there's too many to choose ryte.. Its just the same like what im feeling too.

My longest (5months and currently still counting)

My earlierst so far....( a month back)



haiz... a sickness i can't heal..... the medicine is with you and maybe in me :( but i know i can't heal myself...

thanks raudah for telling me I'll appreciate your honest comment of me..


there's are just so many things or options to choose that makes it hard to choose only 1 thing..anyone unfickle me? haizzzzz

Like finally... we met :D :D :D heheh aderlaaa budak tuuu


kesian dia.... lambat (-0.5 deduction).... then stress as her grp presentation kinda teruk.... awwwwh

haizzzzzz

what to do???

from your senior advice yerrr..... better leave the house EARLY..... about the grp presentation try and brainstorm of a group.. remember the problem can be solve taw :D



for me..... my first day started off nicely (: haha did some hard-worked maths calculations. Its about aerodynamics and propulsion seyyyy!!! :D And still i did pretty well. (: Was about to give up at one time but i dont wanna throw face arrr HAHA :D

geeez... year 2 meaning harder problems.. the first day cracked my entire head veins.. LMAO!!

i've got four lessons which means my wednesday are OFF DAYS. WOOHOO


Digital Electronics(W24M)

Analogue Electronics(W24M)

Aerodynamics and Propulsion(W25K)

Aircraft Instrument System(W25E)

omg dats like my lesson for year 2.... hope i did properly..wish me BEST yerrr (:


my classes are

A few more days to my 2nd year in tertiary school(RP). This year it would be a hell new load of new things that i'll learnt. Firstly im gonna study Aerospace modules.. :D That's what i've been waiting for(like real). Anyway before entering my 2nd year...

I did something unexpected...... I SHOP till i DROP.. (:

bought new pair of shoes... shirts.... beg.... woohooo i love mum and daddy....... and guess what i did go saloon this time round.. Thanks to my alamak friend, i've got a 28 bucks cut and yeapp i do like my new haircut :DX


the ecstacy of getting dyed/highlighted is there, but i didnt...trust me... i think i'll do on my 2nd visit to the saloon. (: well a week plus i've been living in wdlands... I do glad my bedok friends still teman me to the saloon which is at Suntec City :D and






ohh i've been learning spanish sia... ask aisha on how my spanish ... she learnt a few things ryte mariposa? :D



and ohh to arsenal loads of luck yea arsene wenger (: iLy

DID I TELL U I HAPPEN TO LIKE MY BLOG SONG.....-im not in love- serious per?

and to Diana, hope to see you in school since we're in the same sch yerrr.... really2 wish to bump/langgar/tumbuk(???EHH SALAH???)... haha kidding pals ohwell tc yerr

dats summed up my six days in woodlands....

how i miss bedok.....

i know of the blocks which i can steal internet connection and not at woodlands!!! dAAM.... wanna play internet oso hard.. for your info the pic is taken in RP library... haha

I'm currently in Rp... guess nothing to do at home... so come here..will be overafternooning(not overnight arrrrrr!)..

and yea two days ago i watch movie with my bestie Shidah... (: haha she CLAIMS to be my bestie(yerlaaaa2)... hahahahaha ermz ohwell i havent even take lunch yet.. wanna serang RP canteen awhile later... hahaha HOHO

im missing everyone online... the girls and the guys... hoho :( tahan beb a month from now i'll be AMK.. and im damm sure i have to find network if not.. idk wad to say!!

BEDOK BEDOK BEDOK!!! i miss bedok

ohh meet-up my friends at airport terminal 3... HOHO :D omg i miss them.. they miss me of course.. :p

Feels happy for someone.. She's going to be one year soon. *hiding away my tears*

Craps... anyway is 'love' blind..? im just looking on a situation where someone basically have a feeling for the person whose like already attach with someone else.


HIS VERSION OF : LOVE BLIND




Barely knows her..
she's the star that lits his life
a fact that someone else already in her life
should he gave up on her

Well god knows..
what he ponders
about his own happy life
or her's..

Images of her
pictureseque his mind
though it seems darken
everywhere he sees her is bright

Barely knows her..
she's the star that lits his life
a fact that someone else ended in her life
should he gave in on her

is love blind?
is it.....
is love blind?
is it....

he's sitting through every corner
kept imagining her life would be inch-perfect
nevertheless its opposite of his
her life came first before his

is love blind?
is it...
is love blind?
is it....





-soccer soon- i hope i had fun later just to wash away this feeling of despair...


If this isn't love, tell me what it is
Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy

A big thanks to my friends who helped my family smoothen the my belongings to my temporary house in woodlands. Thanks to Farhan, Salihin and Shafir loads.. And ohh lucky my things were not so many as we didnt bring alot of furniture along with us. The cool thing of living in woodlands, my family and my aunt's will be much closer since we're living in the same roof. And haha i've got little kids to play with. Isn't that great. I love kiddiees...













See him...SO ADORABLE!!!!!!!!


i just love his name Ni'al(i think...sheesh forget coz its very hard..got aprostrophe siaaa). He just a few months.. 19 i think... he's 19 mths and im 19 -.- haha


AND TMRW GT SOCCER MATCH AT OPSS!... gd luck HAIKAL!!! :D


I MISS BEDOK...just now was friday(if im at bedok...i'd play soccer with my friends) sobbbbb

BYE EAST PEOPLE......................................


I MISS PEOPLE IN EAST TERRIBLY AEROPLANE LOADS........................

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

anyway haha guess what if you happen to look closely at this smiley's above...

you can SEE happy faces too... see try me? omg i just wonder our eyes not the perfectly accurate..

oh well why im talking about eyes?? zzz anyway

HELLO NORTH-SIDE PEOPLE.....hohohohohohoh (: friends in NORTH.. let's meet hahaha

ahh faggot... today i sleep and the moment i wake up tomorrow... I JUST effing realised. Today the last night I'll be spending at this house.. And tomorrow i'm gonna shift house to my cousin's at woodlands circle ar... its not beside miss fifi already laa... -.-


anyway this saturday im gonna play well... i swear.. head.. kick... and i score many yerr... the other time went late... so yea lost time to even warm up.. got cramps. and that saturday play soccer with efwat and his friends... my toe frigging injured!! wish it will be okay soon..

my miserable week ended up with man u scoring last minute against the villains. Anyway i was a whisker away from betting. SERIOUS... BETTING...haha if i had bet... it will be A-A meaning aston villa first half win and full itme... lol lucky i didnt try ar

Sheesh i badly wanna go that c.d concert lei....

i left with less than 24 hours to ask people tagged me.. sheesh :( ask a few people and i've being turned down since they have plans beforehand while i ask them at a last minute... awww

anyway 1 day left in bedok... :(


i REALLY WANNA GO DAT CRAIG DAVID CONCERT
arrrrrrr!!!

haha second part of my birthday post day!! :D

sheesh david is sure one kind soul... preparing to talk to me using a birthday cake dp... he's asking me to eat them online i am sure about that.. he's sweet la david :D awww

i had fun time counting down with my cliques... zul sabri azri haqim make my day.. from like 10pm the on 31st till 2am on the 1st of april... geez i celebrate with them... he(azri) played guitar and a happy birthday song for me.. awww sweet guy.. nisa's guy!!! haha and yea zul offer a few sticks.. aww haha.. sabri's and haqim's idea of making our ciggarettes ash to make my name(but it's not enough).. they did make 'H 19' haha oklaaa tu


thanks ex-es for remembering my birthday too Nur Nadirah and Syazwani

:DD (:

i want to go that craig david concert serious shit




it's on the 8th... MUMMY can i use my gaji go.... haha i want serious shit badly shit ass shit wadever shit hahaha (: hope the tickets will still be offered around the 5th (:

and if i got free tickets(coz my aunt working in sistics)... hehe i will give you a prankly april fool call yea (: *i might have the free ticket* :D